☾ a glimpse into the mind of a lost girl ☽

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of kidnapping / murder / abuse. talk about depression (?), disassociation do you ever feel like you’re floating through life, like nothing is real and everything that is happening is simply a hazy dream? just fleeting moments you’re sitting through, on an endless loop in your mind like snapshots of a movie?…

We Need to Talk About PCOS

Disclaimer: Picture source: Getty Images Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) affects 1 in 5 women in the UK. It’s a hidden illness with a large number of symptoms, from depression to excessive hair growth to possible infertility, hindering women in a variety of ways by weakening them and impacting their mental and physical health. For such…

Dealing with feeling ‘not good enough’

A few days ago, I was told that I would no longer be offered anymore shifts for this freelance writing gig I had. The email, sent on a Friday night, completely ruined my mood. While I completely understand budgeting is an issue, having to read this email, to put it frankly, sucked. It made me…

The Strangeness of Bad News

First posted on Medium Trigger warning: death, illness Since March 2020, it sort of seems like the world has somehow shifted — more bad news pouring out of everyone’s mouths as the days creep by. For months, every phone call my family would get was about one loss or another, deaths, illnesses, people we know…

Taking a step back

Thoughts begin to accumulate, feelings slowly build and rise inside, a whisper of a forsaken past and memories from Before. Nostalgia sweeps in like a suffocating embrace, blurring the hopes for Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow with the ever constant pressure from Now. Achievements always in comparison, never enough, a hopeless fire of rage and…

Skin Deep

Body Image Series: Part 2 The first part of the body image series was on self-love vs self-hate. You can find it here. In my body image series, I hope to discuss and open up more about my thoughts on the way I look, accept every flaw, even the ones I don’t particularly find pleasing…

My Ovaries & Me

Earlier, I wrote about needing a conversation surrounding Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS for short), I mentioned that I often get irregular periods. While that has been the case for many years, around 2017, my period began to have a little more of a pattern to it, whether it would be a week early or two…