Why I cried when my boyfriend bought me Ben & Jerry’s ice cream

[this is a synopsis from an article I wrote for Medium.] During the early days of my relationship with J, I was still in this haze of ‘pinch-me-I’m-dreaming’ because being treated with so much love, acceptance and wholesome kindness felt so unreal to me. I didn’t know what to do with all the love, all […]

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The Book that Changed How I See Relationships

[this is a synopsis from my article / review on Medium] Sometimes, we read books that end up changing us as people — how we think, feel or even behave. They impact the way we view the world around us and our relationships. These are the books that, in all the ways that count, matter […]

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It’s the little moments

It’s another day, though it is the love of my life’s birthday and we celebrated this day the only way we could in this ceaseless period of confusion and weirdness, of survival, of appreciating the simple blisses of being with him. Spending time together. Holding each other.

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Why my sexuality is none of your business

You don’t need evidence about sexuality: on being bi and why it’s none of your business Lately, I’ve become more attuned to bisexual erasure, more so because I’ve been asked questions to ‘prove’ my sexuality, which shouldn’t be anyone’s business anyway. A lot of people tend to say “you’re not bi because you’ve never been […]

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Dating in a pandemic

When I first met my boyfriend earlier this year, I didn’t expect everything that followed to be so movie-esque. It all unfurled slowly, like the lead up to the conflict that inevitably transpires before the predictable Happily Ever After we all want, wish, and hope for. The search for a Happily Ever After sinks in […]

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Marriage {as set out by brown culture}

[read about brown boy privilege here.] When it comes to marital relationships in brown culture, there’s something like a guideline to adhere to, lest we’re told to return to our father’s home and not go back. It’s misogynistic, sexist and dripping with patriarchy.

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On love and heartbreak: is it worth it?

Throughout history and literature, there have been various forms of art depicting, explaining and showcasing love, and along with it, heartbreak. They are not just words you read or hear about, but rather emotions felt reverberating in the deepest parts of us, for as long as we’ve existed. I’ve felt both. I have written about […]

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Trying to Survive Lockdown

TRIGGER WARNING: DEPRESSION, MENTION OF SUICIDE, DEATH who would’ve thought that 2020 would be one wild, crazy mess of a year? and we’re not even halfway through yet.

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Brown Girl Guilt

i spent the entirety of today with J, free from the cultural toxicity and the unbelievably infuriating four words that i’m forced to hear every day; what will people say? but this freedom only lasted until i came home at 8pm.

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The Henna Wars

thank you ever so much to Page Street Publishing & Lizzy Mason for sending me an ARC of THE HENNA WARS to review! this does not affect my rating or review. TRIGGER WARNING: HOMOPHOBIA & RACISM When Nishat comes out to her parents, they say she can be anyone she wants—as long as she isn’t […]

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